Stressed with Server Problems

Having my very own blog hosting services is quite awesome but if some technical things don’t come your way, like server administrators not allowing this and that, you have no choice but get stressed from all the troubleshooting that you need to do to get your own blog and your hostees backed-up and transferred successfully and hassle free.

Why I am getting a lot of stress? Well, some server administrator would just tell you that they can’t help you and just try googling the problem! Gesh…isn’t that the most insane answer you can get? You pay them and then their service is not that good. They just left you floating unanswered!

Anyway, until now, I haven’t finished doing all the necessary things that I needed to get it done. Now, I felt like I drank a couple of weight loss pills because I have even forgotten to eat my lunch. It seems like I am having a hunger strike!

Capable of Hurt and Anger

Well, what do you know?! Somebody has decided to come home after spending my hard earned money in drinking!! Yes, my husband has just arrived from drinking again. This time it’s already a miracle that he got home on a Sunday evening. Last week he arrived Monday morning which caused him to be absent from work!

All my financial problems are piling up. After he took the ATM with Baby Bella’s savings on it (which will be used as a Medicare supplement to my child delivery), he again took some from me again. It was very irritating because that was my last money that the family will need to adjust and survive on for the next few days. And now, he spent it drinking in a place God knows where!

I love my husband but I am also human. I am capable of hurt and anger.

I Hate Him!

I am still awake and still waiting for my husband to arrive from his drinking habit. I have spent countless hours over the internet searching and comparing term life insurance quotes while waiting for him. Now, it’s already past 4AM and I doubt if he is ever coming home in the next few minutes. Grrr…It really makes me mad when he promises and just breaks it without hesitation.

When I talk to him about it, he just tells me that I need to be more patient because he is having a hard time saying no to his old habit. But from the looks of it, he is not even “trying” to stop. He just allows things to happen and just indulge himself without thinking twice!

I really hate him! I also hate myself. In my current situation, I felt hopeless and futureless!

So Stressed Out!

My husband arrived around 5am. He told me that he slept at his friend’s house because he was already too drunk to go home. And once he is drunk, he is afraid to be home because he is emotionally violent and sometime physically violent. He can’t shut himself up because of being so drunk!

If you are in my situation right now and on a diet, I guess you don’t need to take fat burners anymore because the stress will surely lag down your health! I am into too much stress because of my marriage, my house being in chaos and my income is going down the drain because I am missing a lot of opportunities online! And on top of that, I have too many bills to pay and financial obligation to fulfill. Isn’t that tiring??

A Big Regret!

If you remember a few months ago, I have been constantly writing about my husband wanting to have his own set of weights. And, you also know that I already have bought him what he wanted. Guess what?! After a few weeks of use, he has placed the weights aside and now back into his drinking spree again! Grrr… I am so annoyed!

Anyway, I asked him about the weights and why he isn’t using it anymore. Well, he just told me immediately that he doesn’t like using it this time because it still lacking. He said there are other sets that needed to be bought to complete the routine! Isn’t that annoying?!

Oh well, I just wished I didn’t bought him those weights. I should have bought a Kettlebell for myself. I might not use it now but will sure use it after I gave birth to my baby. If he needs to trim down, well, I need to shape up myself once I gave birth. Grrr…I shouldn’t have spoiled him!