From Bad to Worst

Because of my emotional heartbreak, I think online sellers will earn from me as I continually buy acne products. I am always lack of sleep and am constantly a victim of massive emotional stress. I thought my life will improve along the way but it made from bad to worst!

Anyway, I feel like giving up already! I want to stop this insane relationship I am in. I want freedom!!!

Emotera in Me

EMOTERA is slang in our language referring to an emotional female. Sometimes I considered myself “emotera” especially in my marriage life. Though I have been married for 10 years, I can safely say that those were the years of sacrifice. Even until now, I think I am still in the sacrificial mode!

My 10 years of marriage are not the best years of my life and even until now. I believe those where the years that my body physically degraded because of stress. If you look at me right now, I think you will recommend to me the best eye cream to help sooth my eye bags and wrinkles due to emotional stress!

Anyway, there were also good things and these are my children. I never regretted having them. Their presence gives me strength and joy to my life! I survived because of God’s help and by their love for me. They are my inspiration!

Christmas EMO

Just to be honest, I was little emotional last Christmas day. After the family ate our Noche Buena, my husband went out to his friends from our old neighborhood. He said he will be back after they have a few drinks. So, I immediately agreed believing he will keep his promise.

While waiting for him, I took the liberty of searching for Mopar performance parts. But when 6am came, there was still no sign of him. So, I texted his friends asking where my husband was. Unfortunately, they replied that he already went home. They saw him rode a trisikad.

Knowing that my husband was no longer there, I can’t help but feel betrayed again. I was really hoping that he would keep his promise but still he didn’t. He spent his Christmas with his drinking friends at the bridge. He went home 6pm as if he had done nothing. No regrets. No remorse.

I talked to him but as simple as one two three, he said sorry. After that, he said that was it, end of discussion.

Anyway, I was amazed with myself that I didn’t pick up a fight. I just told him not to do it anymore because it’s hurting the whole family. After that, I went and go on with my everyday routine. Maybe I got tired of the reoccurring issue that I don’t want to talk about it anymore. I felt that another talk would be useless.

Oh well, I also told him not to go out on New Year’s Eve or else I am going to make a war scene here in our house. He just agreed. I hope this time he will be man enough to keep his promise.

I Failed!!

Christmas is almost near and I haven’t bought anything for the kids yet. I wanted to buy them a present like a playstation 3 but I don’t have the budget. I have been busy paying our debts from my income and if I have extra, I treat them to a family day (play at the mall and eat out).

Oh well, I am so sad right now. I felt that I have failed to prepare for a wonderful Christmas for my children! I feel so mad at myself.

Stressed with Server Problems

Having my very own blog hosting services is quite awesome but if some technical things don’t come your way, like server administrators not allowing this and that, you have no choice but get stressed from all the troubleshooting that you need to do to get your own blog and your hostees backed-up and transferred successfully and hassle free.

Why I am getting a lot of stress? Well, some server administrator would just tell you that they can’t help you and just try googling the problem! Gesh…isn’t that the most insane answer you can get? You pay them and then their service is not that good. They just left you floating unanswered!

Anyway, until now, I haven’t finished doing all the necessary things that I needed to get it done. Now, I felt like I drank a couple of weight loss pills because I have even forgotten to eat my lunch. It seems like I am having a hunger strike!