Mommy Emotes

I don’t want to blog about this but I have no one to tell my deepest hurts and fears. I am all alone in my room and my friends are far beyond reach as of the moment.

Anyway, my hubby is planning to audition to their company’s singing duet contest. At first, he said he is not that interested but he will audition for the sake of his boss and the consolation prize of Php 10,000 per contestant per pair. Then I said OK, I am fine with that. But lately, I saw that he was so very interested. He even brought my Altec Liansing Speakers to their office just for that. He said he is going to “show-off.” Argh!!

Oh well, I don’t mind him singing with somebody else but I was not expecting that he will be singing with this particular girl from work. Though she is already married, she has been rumored to have been involved in another affair with my husband’s workmate. Well, I would not be scared if my husband’s workmate is still around, I don’t care since it’s their business not mine. BUT, the problem is, the man is no longer around and I could not bear the fact that my husband will be singing a love song with her.

Gesh! Talk about fear and frustration! Fine, my husband told me that I should not be jealous because he loves me very much. Heller!! I thought LOVE was an action word, why I couldn’t see any tangible manifestation of the so-called LOVE?? Aside from that, he said he wanted to join very much because the prize money is big enough to save for me and the baby. Talk about Indecent Proposal scenario, because you need money, you are willing to gamble the emotion of your partner!

I am just a little jealous right now! I don’t want to think bad thoughts or assume otherwise. I hope my husband will be stronger in resisting office romance. Grrr….what a frustrating day!