Mommy Emotes

It’s already 2009 and I am posting my first emoting post this year. Anyway, nothing is new actually. Every December holiday that passed by since my husband and I got back together was no where the word “OK.” It was not always the best and it seems it’s getting worse every year.

Last year he slept the whole time because he got drank before that time and now, he is outside drinking and enjoying the fireworks. I went outside to be with him but he told me to stay inside with our son. OK, I get it…that one has good intentions. But a little later, he came by our room and told my son to go out so that he can watch the fireworks. Guess what?! I was left alone inside our room for about half an hour. He didn’t even invite me while they were merry outside!!

I don’t know how to feel about it since prior to the New Year, he was trying to be nice and all. You can see by the look of his face that he wants to be nice and he is up to something. He tried to do things that are unusual which only happens when he wants something in return.

Anyway, it’s a new year and I am hoping for a brighter and happier marriage. It seems hopeless right now but I am still stubbornly waiting for a miracle to happen. Just want to be set free from this hurt!

To all my friends and visitors, happy New Year!! More blessings for 2009!!