EMOTE 101: I Want to Scream!!
Now it’s time to emote. I know it was really my fault but I really felt that I don’t deserve such kind of punishment for that matter.
Our neighbor who borrowed a small amount of money from us last summer and who was not able to pay, borrowed again from me today. He told me that he needed the money for his baby. Since I am a mommy and he only needed $3.00, I opted to let him borrow with a hope that he might have changed because of his baby. I think everybody deserves a second chance.
So when evening came, I was really worried about our finances because there are many credit card bills that have gone past due. So I opened it up with my hubby and so as the borrowing of money while we were at ChowKing waiting for our food to be served. When the food arrived, he didn’t ate nor spoke to me. He gave me a silent treatment until home. Since I know I was wrong in letting our neighbor borrow, I just kept silent and avoided an argument with him.
But now, I got so hurt by the way he treats me. When I ask him a question or share something to him, he just replied rudely. Then when I noticed my son was quite hot, he asked me if there is a medicine. So I replied we don’t have any because I was not able to buy a paracetamol last time. Then after that, he started giving me words of insults and even mentioned our past. He even said why I let our neighbor borrowed, why can’t I say no. Did our neighbor and I have something that he doesn’t know that I couldn’t say no to him? He is accusing me?!
Gesh! I know I am wrong and I have been silent for the past few days even in his faults because I wanted this family to work but now, lending to a poor man (he was only a sikad driver, not even half to what he is) was a grave sin to him already! Because of this, he is treating me as if I have done immorality of some sorts. OK, he has a point! I lend to someone who was not able to pay me back and I was not able to buy a stand by medicine. Fine! I am wrong but please isn’t this utterly insane that I should suffer such treatment?? Do I deserve this?!
I am totally emotional right now. Aside from this intense ambiance inside our room because of our arguement, I can’t even access my WordPress blog! I really felt that yesterday and today doesn’t favor me. I felt so absolutely low right now. I want to scream and disappear!! Grrrr…
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Mommy lilipas din ang init ng ulo ni hubby kaya stay calm ka lang.
But we are here always ready to “listen” so just pour out your feelings.. remember, there’s a sunshine after the rain..ngek parang song ata yon ah! lol
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Halo! How’s the homefront today? Hopefully everything is ok na. Kahirap nyan kasi isang room lang kayo….
You’ll get through this…as always.
Mommy J