Mommy Emotes

This is my second entry for Emerald Sundays.

Emerald Sunday 2

This picture was taken last March 2008 during my daugther’s eight birthday. We celebrated it at Mambukal Mountain Resort.

Having a luggage trolley is very convenient. It makes traveling smooth and you wouldn’t worry carrying your luggage around because you just let it slide on the floor. Unfortunately, my old blue luggage trolley has already reached its years. So, I am planning to buy a new one just in case I need to travel (or escape? ). What do you think this Helium Fusion from Delsey luggage? A pink luggage set looks pretty cool to me.

After what happened yesterday, I was relieved by a chat with my daughter. We weren’t able to spend Christmas together but because of today’s technology we were bridged using the internet.

She is now at Cagayan de Oro using my laptop and we are here in Bacolod using my desktop. Of course it could not replace being together physically but it would do for now since we are not in the position to have her relocated immediately.

I don’t know what will happen with our marriage but our initial plan was to relocate my daugther on April 2009 after the school year. Our plan was to make this marriage work no matter what but for now, I don’t know. He gave up on me! We are talking again but he didn’t take his word back. He still gives me the impression of sending my boy and I home.

I am confused but still I am stubbornly hopefull.

How did your Christmas go? Well, I guess most of you are fortunate to have your loved ones around. For that I envy you. My Christmas was the third worst I ever had. The first was 2006 and the second was last year and then now. And to be honest, the worst of them all was yesterday!!

My husband told me that he wants me to go home to Cagayan de Oro because he doesn’t like my attitude anymore. He blamed me for my son’s hospitalization. He said I was not trying my best to become a good wife and mom. He also said that I was abusing him.

Ok, I admit…I can’t cook and I am not a perfect wife and mom either. I tried to take care of him and our baby boy the best way I know how and still in the process of learning how to improve on it. I am also a vocal person. I tell him how I feel and what I want. He says I am irritating him while I was only asking for open communication.

What happened? Since he spent most of his time drinking outside the house with our neighbors and didn’t even spent Christmas Eve dinner with us, I only asked that he spend the Christmas Day with us. And guess what?! Our neighbor waked him up around 12nn to drink again. I was amazed when he stood up and went outside. Because of that, I got furious and did not give him any smile! When he asked me why, I told him about it. After awhile, our discussion got into a blast from the past, and then suddenly he told me that he doesn’t want me here anymore and that our baby boy and I should go home. He said I can’t change and he can’t change, so better off that I go home! He also said, the kids are better off with my parents because I don’t know how to take care of them.

After hearing all these things, I cried and said sorry that I wasn’t the best wife and mom. I said I will try my very best to prove it and begged for another year but he said he don’t want it anymore. He doesn’t want me here with him. He said maybe I will change if I were to go home and that we live separate lives.

Honestly, I was really shocked! I complained about his weaknesses but still I put up with him because I love him. I am sincere to uphold my vows to love him for better and for worst, in sickness and in health, ‘til death do us part but I was shocked that he gave up on me! He gave up on me because I was not enough as a wife and mom for him?!

Can he not see the effort I am putting here?! Can he not see that I am trying to improve my skills as a mom and wife?! I gave up my work as a branch manager just to stay home and learn to become a good house wife and mom but still he gave up on me.

So, what am I? I am a total failure! What else can I say but I failed to become a wife and a mom. So, is this the end of me? Should I go back to work? To be honest, I am losing my self-esteem here. If I failed to become a good mom and wife, then I bet I will surely fail in everything. And if that’s the case, I think I should give it up all together! There is no sense of pursuing things.

Last month while searching for a home business website to blog about at my online business and resources site, I was able to stumble upon the Plug-In Profit Site. It was one of those FREE business resources that you can have to promote affiliate programs. What makes this site unique from others is that it promotes the top six affiliate programs that have been known to be a sure home business success because of the testimonials given by those who have earned big time while promoting them. These top six affiliate programs are ClickBank, SFI, Traffic Swarm, Success University, Empowerism, and Host4Profit.

Plug-In Profit Site has been around since 2002 and has a track record of helping thousands of people earn money online. Aside from being a FREE to join program, they offer a “30 Days to Success” Training Program that is designed to help newbie affiliate marketers to get a head start on money making.

But to top it all, Stone Evans is the man behind Plug-In Profit Site. He is known to be the ultimate home biz guy since he authored a lot of home business related sites. He has also helped a lot of people to earn money from their homes.

Anyway, it would be nice to chat with such person. Think of all the home business lessons you can get if you will be given the chance to talk to him! That would be the best home business talk for me.